a glance

I was watching that movie … and I … I felt needing you so much..

I just noticed that today is 29^th of Nov. only few days from your day, and … ?!! is it a coincidence ?!!

Was it now more than a year ?!! and I still remember and think how far was it …

Was it so difficult when you need something to have it?!!

What a life !! when you go back in time and ask if have done it all?? if you have done it as it should be ?!! or as you looked forward and hoped …

Just remembering you now and wondering if you still remember ….

Please be happy…

for me…

When I feel nothing to do.. I write to you..

http://www.mawaly.com/music/Fairouz/track/8676

On this cold morning...

when going to sleep is the best thing that can be done..

I feel missing you...

When the need to write is the last thing that can be done ...

I'm now writing to you...

When feeling very tired..

I go to my old pictures and see you there...

It's the same feeling when searching for something missing in my new ones...

It's not my laugh I used to be...

Was I really laughing before?

or may be I didn't feel like missing laughing until I stopped laughing any more...

and now I wonder..

should you really have to go?

Was it better to me when you left...

should I have to pay this heavy price.. to be what I should to be.. without you..

When I hardly could open my eyes..

I can see your picture very clearly..

I know I missed you before..

and know I'm going to miss you more in the coming cold days..

When I have nothing more left except writing...

here I'm writing to you..

here I'm writing to myself...

may be I can feel...

may be you can hear..

may be I could feel little warm then at this moment I can go to sleep alone..

and think what if you were still..

What my life should now look like..

Should I do the same things you liked to do...

Should I feel that much love and missing for you..

Should you be very happy .. supportive and encouraging...

Now I only wish if it's not time to see you.. then it should always be better to write..

may be you can read..

may be you can feel..

may be I could be able to sleep again..